I’ve taken the plunge. I’ve decided it’s time to go natural hair. I’m done with the wig, and the hats and the scarves. My hair is very short, but it’s my hair.
Honestly, what is it I’m hiding under the hats and scarves? There’s nothing shameful or embarrassing about the fact that I lost my hair. I had cancer. I had chemo. It happens. In fact, it seems like it happens pretty often. I keep meeting people who have or have had cancer. So what am I hiding?
Last night Sam and I were having a burger at 5 guys (love you Weight Watchers!) and a woman came up to me. She was very apologetic for bothering me, but asked if I had been through chemo. It turned out that she had just been diagnosed with cancer and would be starting chemo soon. I was so glad that I had been out with my hair, not a wig, so that I was there for her to come up and talk to. She said she was looking at me wondering “Will that be me soon?” and I said, “Yes, it probably will, but you know… it’s only hair.”
We only talked for a few minutes and there’s so much more I wish I had told her. I wish I had said that she will learn that she is much stronger than she knows, and that her friends and family will have opportunities to show their love and support that will mean the world to her. I wish I had said that it’s hard but it’s not impossible, and that there is hope and joy throughout the journey. I wish I had said that there are days that the body feels pretty bad but there are also good days, and throughout, it is possible to keep the heart uplifted and the spirit positive. I wish most of all that I said that God will hold her hand if she asks him, that he loves her more than she can imagine, and that when we are weakest, that is when his strength is strongest for us.
And I wish I had said that we are beautiful, with or without our hair. Alive is beautiful.
But he replied, “My kindness is all you need. My power is strongest when you are weak.” So if Christ keeps giving me his power, I will gladly brag about how weak I am. 2 Corinthians 12:9
I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand and say to you, ‘Don’t be afraid; I will help you.’ Isaiah 41:13